I used to teach classes in a club at Raffles Place.
I enjoyed teaching in that club - the people there were very nice and friendly.
Then one day, it came to me that it was time to leave.
I could not.
I love the class.
It meant a lot to me.
Usually, I would go half-an-hour earlier before the class starts to share with the members - 50 mins for a class is just not enough.
That week, I was early but I didn't go up to the club.
Instead, I sat on one of the chairs overlooking Singapore River, till it was time for class.
I could not face the participants.
I needed time alone.
I was in a dilemma.
My mind was disturbed.
I was not happy.
For 2 months, I was going to and fro : letting go, holding on ... letting go, holding on....
Oscillating like a pendulum bob.
The day I decided to let go, I felt a sense of relief.
And the day I informed the club of my decision, I was uplifted.
I knew I did the right thing : My shoulders felt lighter. I felt I could fly.
Never have I felt so happy, so free.
I know I'll miss the participants, but I also knew that it was time for me to say 'goodbye'.
In my heart they'll always be and the experiences we shared will always live and never die.
With the letting go of this class, I know I'll have no problem letting go of any other classes.
"Letting go is painful, only if you hold on tightly."
"Hold something lightly, and learn to be able to let it go."
To all my students (or rather, 'teachers') of the classes which I have dropped - whether directly or indirectly :
This one, is for you.
"Maitre-Light thanks you -
For all the joys, the laughter, the aches and the pains,
For all the wonderful feelings that will always remain;
Side by side,
or miles apart ...
All of you will always have
A place in my heart ...
May all be well and happy always.
Namaste :)
